It's been a few days, and I really don't know if he had the opportunity to read the last post (but I really think he did.) I didn't know my twitter post would bring so much drama over everything and how my friends reacted to that post. No comments on the blogpost, but people constantly ask me if I'm okay. Anyway, that won't stop me from blogging.
It's been more than just a few days since my last post. And I'm doing quite well actually. Except for those moments when even the little things remind you of him, and you think, "Oh, that's his favori-" and then you stop yourself, because you know you can't tell him about how good your day was or how you managed to eat his favorite food, or how your mom constantly reminds you of him and rather forgets that you're not anymore together-together. It's been totally different the past few days. My phone doesn't ring so much anymore, and the messages coming in and out are usually just group messages. There are those times that people text or call me for a chat, but then, it's just not the same.
I've been doing things just to get my mind off-topic, because it's really not easy going through this stage. I
don't know and I don't want to assume he's going through the same way. I've been joining organizations from school, been hanging out with friends, TRYING to make new friends because it's not that easy (I don't know with you guys but I feel like I just don't belong, and other schoolmates of mine before feel the same way) and I'm currently dancing. I'm trying out new things.
And about that dancing part, we're going to audition on the 4th of July, about 4 days from now, to enter in the UP Cookout. We don't have a particular name, but we're all from the Computer Science program. Four first years, and 3 higher years. We're doing "Stay" by Rihanna, bootleg remixed. It's hiphop and pretty new to me since I'm more of a ballroom-latina. But I'm trying.
I'm doing well in school too, I guess. I'm trying my best to actually look as if I can get the answers right away. The thing in UP is that, they don't look at schools so much. If you came from Science High, then okay. Whatever. And I'm getting the hang of it. Although having no class and just having the whole 1 hour and 30 minutes just to watch a boring documentary on how the big bang works or on how life existed is kind of weird.Anyway, they say that missing is just a part of moving on. But I'm not quite sure just yet. And if someone reading this post wonders if I'm okay? Yes. I'm okay. I'm happy, or at least I'm trying to be. If I still miss him? A part of me still does.
I'm ending here because I still have so much to study for.
