And then I realize. No one is going to fall in love with me.
People often write reasons why they should be the someone you choose. And I was going to write something similar. But as I went on, I realized that there are much more reasons why you should not fall in love with me.
When you meet me, and you suddenly decide maybe after a day, a week, a month or a year, that "I should fall in love with this girl." You should know who you're going to fall in love with. And I'm going to tell you who.
When you fall in love with me, you should be prepared to fall in love with my every flaw. Know that my teeth aren't perfectly aligned. I don't have the cleanest nails. Maybe when we kiss, I do too much tongue at the first try, until probably you get the guts to tell me I'm putting to much.
You should also be prepared to fall in love with my insecurities. I will constantly compare myself to every girl you meet with. To every girl you have already met. To every girl you work with, you share a seat with. I will be in a constant battle for your attention. I will question myself every time you look at a girl twice, but don't blame yourself. That's just me. I am just so afraid to lose you to someone else because you will be a part of me soon, and if I lose your attention now when you still have so much to discover, when I get boring and you all my stories, won't it be easier for other girls to get your attention? But then again, that's just me.
Prepare to fall in love with my clingy-ness. I will always want your attention. I will probably call you up at 3 AM just to ask you if you're already asleep, and you'd answer a zombie-sounding 'uhhh.' And I'd giggle on the other line and you will think this is annoying. And when you don't do what I want to because you have work to do, I might be upset and throw a cold shoulder. Please do understand me when I'm like that. Don't leave me hanging.
I will always, and unintentionally, overthink the littlest things. I will wonder why you said this word in this tone, or if I'm too much to handle. Your every 'maybe' and your every 'probably', every 'nevermind', every 'yeah sure' will be a torture to me. And I don't blame you again, because this is just me. I will always overthink that maybe you might see me not as 'the one' and I might be seeing you otherwise. So I take care of every last and every single detail that could possible ruin what we have. I imagine all the possible scenarios, or maybe just like 10 scenarios, that might happen and how I should react to every one. This is only because I want us to last long.
I will always jump to conclusions especially when someone else is involved. I will always think that they are so much better than me and you might as well fall in love with them.
But you are also going to fall in love with how I will ask you how you're day was and I will listen to your every word. You're falling in love with how I will take care of you when you're sick, how I will bring you soup or food and will never leave you unless you ask me to. You will fall in love with how I will always try to make you smile with the silliest and corniest jokes there are. You will fall in love with all my good morning and good night messages. You will fall in love with all the prayers I will say for you and for us. You will fall in love with the way I will always want to hold your hand. You will fall in love with all the cuddles and the hugs and the kisses I long to share with you. You will fall in love with how I want a sense of adventure, and how I will always ask you to be a part of all the crazy things I wish to do.
You will fall in love with a girl whose only wish is to be with you for a really long time.
Prepare to fall in love with my clingy-ness. I will always want your attention. I will probably call you up at 3 AM just to ask you if you're already asleep, and you'd answer a zombie-sounding 'uhhh.' And I'd giggle on the other line and you will think this is annoying. And when you don't do what I want to because you have work to do, I might be upset and throw a cold shoulder. Please do understand me when I'm like that. Don't leave me hanging.
I will always, and unintentionally, overthink the littlest things. I will wonder why you said this word in this tone, or if I'm too much to handle. Your every 'maybe' and your every 'probably', every 'nevermind', every 'yeah sure' will be a torture to me. And I don't blame you again, because this is just me. I will always overthink that maybe you might see me not as 'the one' and I might be seeing you otherwise. So I take care of every last and every single detail that could possible ruin what we have. I imagine all the possible scenarios, or maybe just like 10 scenarios, that might happen and how I should react to every one. This is only because I want us to last long.
I will always jump to conclusions especially when someone else is involved. I will always think that they are so much better than me and you might as well fall in love with them.
But you are also going to fall in love with how I will ask you how you're day was and I will listen to your every word. You're falling in love with how I will take care of you when you're sick, how I will bring you soup or food and will never leave you unless you ask me to. You will fall in love with how I will always try to make you smile with the silliest and corniest jokes there are. You will fall in love with all my good morning and good night messages. You will fall in love with all the prayers I will say for you and for us. You will fall in love with the way I will always want to hold your hand. You will fall in love with all the cuddles and the hugs and the kisses I long to share with you. You will fall in love with how I want a sense of adventure, and how I will always ask you to be a part of all the crazy things I wish to do.
You will fall in love with a girl whose only wish is to be with you for a really long time.
