Have you ever had those moments when you plan over and over and over again in your head how you are going to handle a certain situation? And when the moment finally comes, you go blank. You have no idea what to do or how to react. You just stop what you're doing and try to act as calm as possible. No words are coming out of your mouth. You're frozen.
I went through this. Imagining every possible scenario in my head. But I went blank. My heart just kept beating faster the darker the night went. I didn't know how to react, or how to talk with my friends. I was there, but some part of me just wasn't.
It was a strange feeling to keep some part of me captive. Dependent on what the situation demands. I had to act accordingly. I don't know why, I just knew I had to.
You try to do it but you can't. You can't even look at them straight in the eye. Something isn't quite yet fixed, and you wouldn't want to start the fire.
And then it hits you just right after that situation. As you walk away, things will cloud up your mind that will seem to clear up the situation.
