Undecided.

It has been more than a few months since my last post. Okay, maybe just two.

I usually blog when:
1) I have something interesting to say and want no one or a few special to know
2) I have nothing to do and my mind suddenly decides it's a good time to write
3) I have weird feelings that need to be expressed but I don't know how to.

The first and second things are crossed off at my list because nothing's interesting the few days. Everyone knows I'm dating someone, and I should have paraphrased two excerpts before I actually write this post. But my feelings have taken over. All aboard!

Why me?

And yes, this is going to be one of those overly dramatic somewhat long love posts I am going to write so this is a fair warning if you wish to proceed. I don't have a grand love story I oh-so-long to tell, but I have "okay" stories about how it all began, well how most of it began. I'm a pretty weird person so it is totally up to you if you wish to continue reading this shiz.

I'll be sharing 4 stories of how it all started. Why? Because someone down the rainbow asked me in a conversation I will be putting down below. Bad idea. But if you're reading this, and I'm pretty sure you will be, hello! So yes, the 4 stories are different, and I've probably told a few of you if you are reading this, about how everything began. But I'm a sucker for love stories.

And I'm pretty sure behind every bitter man-hating girl, is a little girl who still believes in happy endings.

Second Best.

Hi blog.
So summer's getting pretty hot and unfortunately, I still have to use my brain. I have definitely a lot of things on my mind. I have to finish a few codes, try to figure out something I don't even understand (yeah, this is for work ugh.) and well, a lot more. But I'm going to blog about my title. Second Best.

Why you should NOT fall in love with me.

I have always dreamt about falling in love. How when our eyes meet and we're suddenly awestruck. How we always would get this funny feeling inside our bellies when we think each other. How amazing it is that this one person out of the 7 billion in the world chooses to be with me. Me.

And then I realize. No one is going to fall in love with me.

People often write reasons why they should be the someone you choose. And I was going to write something similar. But as I went on, I realized that there are much more reasons why you should not fall in love with me.

How are you, Czar?

Been on hiatus lately. Dealing with a crapload of school work totally drains all your energy to work for the day and you end up thinking, "what if I do a blogpost about this?" but you decide to sleep, because in 2 more hours, it's another school day, another day to fake a smile.

Did I even mention that I'm finally legal? I guess not. So yes, I'm finally 18. And it's been more than 3 weeks since my last post.

So I'd like to make this post a little bit more personal, a little bit more "about me" than about someone else.

Finally. :)

It's been about 2 months since the last time I posted in my blog.

Kinda boring right? But I do appreciate the number of views I get. THANK YOU! :* But I know my blog isn't much at all. Hahaha. It's a place where I rant and where I feel better. That's what blogs are supposed to do, right? And I don't mind you criticizing my grammar or whatnot. It's my blog. You're entitled to your opinions, but I'm entitled to my right. :)

The sparks are gone now. I don't know what made it go away. Probably him knowing, or the people knowing, or probably because practically everyone knows (THANK YOU TRUTH OR DARE -.-), but it's not the same like the last. I'm finally happy and content.

To people in the "Friendzone"

Friendzone - that's what they call it. A gray area where all the girl's guy bestfriends - who can never be boyfriends - are. Moving on, I've been dealing with some lately. I'm pretty sure that when you're the one being "friendzoned", you would think that the other person who put you there does not hurt. I will tell you this, they do.